poetic + angry at biology

sometimes i have the need to write poems. back then when i was in 8th grade i used to write poems all the time in my english class for fun, it was like another hobby of mine. it isn't very frequent anymore because i grew out of it, or just stopped focusing on the idea of making poems for fun. i usually did them whenever i was mentally exhausted or dealing with heavy thoughts. (i am slowly dying i just choked on my spit, urgf) or maybe i did them just because i had nothing else to do. the idea of writing poetry is nice though to me and it helps in some parts of my life.

i REALLY dislike the teacher from my biology class so much, i know biology is difficult but i didn't know it was gonna be this bad. before the new teacher came into biology we had a replacement for the teacher, i'll call the teacher Mr. B. he was really nice about such topics and tasks, plus didn't rush us at all and usually assigned like schoolwork on computers (which i prefer instead of doing it on paper, my hand starts to cramp a lot due to writing) he was calm, plus pretty chill at his job. then.. the new teacher came in. this teacher used to teach at a different school which is usually known for drug dealing, school shootings, a lot of bad stuff from there. surprised that she was a teacher there even though she said she has been there for 12 years i suppose? anyways, when we started to progress through the new teacher, she treats us like kids instead of actual human beings dude. she's so rushed at things, i feel like everything in my mind is so disorganized in the class because she speeds up so. effing. MUCH. i have adhd, been diagnosed with it ever since i was a little guy. my brain usually has to process stuff slowly, not fast. if you give me a piece of paper with random directions and walk away without telling me what to do, i am not gonna know the subject man or what to do. this teacher treats me like that and it's so horrifying for my mind.

she sometimes makes me feel retarded for other things, like she reminds us so much about things (which yes, i know teachers are supposed to do that BUT NOT AGGRESSIVELY DUDE) i start to cry inside. when i don't know what to do, she points at the stuff that i need to do like someone teaching a kid how to do stuff. it makes me so mad and just makes me want to get up and walk out of the classroom. it sucks man. i want to be able to do my own classwork, not like being guided through it if i already know the directions. she does that, because she thinks that we all don't get stuff easily. WE DO DUDE. we just don't like to participate in such social things, she usually forces me to get an answer out of me and tries to teach me through it. (like what to say) like. just give up and how about you say the answer instead. i know this seems like "easy" but it is not to me, i dislike giving out answers the most part and i just think it's really stupid to be graded on participating. OH, also she complains about how much graded work she has to do.. like. bae. ? you are the one assigning papers to us. i just can't stand adults man. all of them are so annoying as hell.

- sunny